“Tales from the Beginning”
Sourced from the Mother-Father
Compiled by Reverend Corinne S. Ramage
Part Two…Llaa Grows into *Life
No-Love is *Felt
Llaa began to reflect on many things…and this was the beginning of the end.
This first reflection was not so much in words as you might expect, as your reflection includes self-talk, it was more in pictures. There were few words in the communication Llaa knew, but as reflection began so did the labeling of concepts that were discovered. This all happened because reflection was meant to be born and with it the need to communicate the revelations realized to others.
And so the end began in this way….
Instead of fishing for the community, Llaa walked to the ocean and watched a school of fish from the top of the cliff and marveled at their ability to stay in community, every turn executed simultaneously. There was, though, always a fish turning unlike the others and taking a slightly different swim, but still remaining with the school. This fish was exploring independence. The community of Llaa's birth moved like the school of fish, while the independent fish was Llaa. Llaa recognized this and excitedly ran back to the community to share the concept – but found no one who could understand the concept that day.
Instead of watching the younger siblings, Llaa wandered away, to consider the petals of a small white flower. The order, the balance and symmetry were mesmerizing. The sixth child, a sister, took over childcare and watched Llaa stare at the white flower for hours without even remembering to eat. She wondered about what Llaa saw in the flower.
Instead of gathering berries, the ocean drew Llaa back again, this time to the water's edge. The rhythmic sound of the waves, and the water that touched Llaa's feet then retreated, triggered thoughts about the ebb and flow of Life. Llaa thought about the circle of the seasons then the circle of Life where the expectation of community was, to choose a mate and to birth children. With the recognition of the interconnectedness between the community and the cycles of Life, Llaa again raced back to communicate this to someone, but found no on to understand. This time, though, the sixth child starred open eyed and curious. Then she became afraid of the communication, turned away and went back to stirring the mixture of fruits cooking in the sun.
Instead of assisting in the gathering of saplings to repair a house, Llaa disappeared into the forest. Llaa noticed small seedlings sprouting beneath the larger parent trees and acknowledged, “This is me! I am a seedling of What Is! I am the same as the fish and the trees.” This time the sixth child listened in her way, intrigued, and then the learned fear of the Unknown took over and she turned away.
When there were wild grains to be pulled from the stalks, Llaa sat in the center of the field and was a part of the wind that moved the field like the ocean. The light wind rippled the grain and Llaa thought, “I am the wind, but I stand secure upon the Earth so I am both me and the wind!” The sixth child was enthralled with the story but then chastised by the others in the community for listening.
Llaa's mother was judged for what was unfolding which was causing a fear that was growing at a dangerous rate. She knew this and defended her child as good and strong. None of which the community could see. She gestured to her Heart and told them, she believed in Llaa and promised she would bring this child back to the community. She knew this would be her last effort because Llaa was no longer considered a child and still without definition as Mother or Father. Youth and innocence could no longer be a defense.
Llaa's mother sat alone and asked the Divine *Loving Presence, she knew watched over the community, to help her. She heard nothing in response to her request and felt that this meant there was nothing to do but allow happen what must.
Llaa's Mother tried on more time to reason with her child. Llaa was unfazed by her concerns. The fear and Loving concern she expressed was *Felt, but Llaa observed it from the witness viewpoint, saw her as a pillar of strength and was *Grateful for her Love. Llaa regretted not being able to communicate this to her clearly. There were no words to do so.
One of Llaa's Fathers, the one with skilled hands, attempted to convince Llaa to participate in the community, and Llaa *Felt his fear and Loving concern and was *Grateful for his presence also.
Neither Mother nor this Father was able to impress the direness of the situation to Llaa, and it came to pass that a vote had to be taken. Llaa's presence was interfering with Life in the community. That Llaa was different and not understood was a concern growing with each day. On the day of the vote, it was decided Llaa must be “abandoned” or Life would collapse. Llaa's Mother protested then later wept. Llaa found her weeping in the woods and understood her pain but knew somewhere within that Life was unfolding as it must.
Llaa understood there was no where else to go but away and into the Unknown. This actuality was not a concern, the Truth being that Llaa now knew that the search was for something that did not exist in the community.
The community felt Llaa's differences as being ‘distancing' and this felt like No-Love to them. Llaa's crime was thought and reflection. This was the first crime. Llaa was to be cast out of the Good Times, abandoned at the age of fourteen and left to die.
With a combination of excitement and sadness Llaa wondered, “Can I survive in the wild, alone? I often forget to eat. Can I hunt and forage for food? Can I find shelter from the rain? Yes. I must. Something calls to me, something outside of my Life here. I will die if I stay, this is certain. I will die if I go, but I may find my answers.”
And then a new word came to Llaa and it was spoken, “*Faith. I have *Faith.”
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My Personal Afterthoughts
Important for us to remember from Part Two:
1) These Beings believed that nothing existed beyond What Was. We realize as we read this how important it is for us to remember that the world may not be as we perceive it to be. The beliefs we *Live as *Truths imprison us. It is a part of our heritage to struggle with our perception of *Truth. Our ignorance and arrogance make us assume our *Truth is the highest *Truth.
2) There are the roots of a productive behavior in this Tale. We learn that it is also a part of our heritage to think and reflect beyond what we assume to Be, What Is.
3) Llaa had to detach from the Known reality to grow. As we begin our spiritual journeys, we still presume the *Truth is outside of us – as did Llaa. In theory, we know the *Truth is within, but we always begin our search outside of ourselves presuming that someone else has our answers.
4) The first crime of punishment was thought and reflection. There is a part of us that remembers that if we think outside of the box, we will be ostracized.
5) We are all also part of this first closed community on some level, and at the same time, a part of Llaa's search outside of self that draws us into the Unknown for answers. We are shown two different directions of spiritual evolution. Most of us choose both directions which creates tension in our Lives. Today's spiritual seekers often walk with Llaa but are pulled back into the dictates of our community to survive.
6) The idea of *Faith is born out of dire circumstances in this Tale. Today we often inspire or resurrect our *Faith when we experience tragedy. We repeat this scenario because it is what we know. The challenge then is to know *Faith without the trigger of tragedy or suffering.